My disclaimer for this blog? I believe in God..... that's it... that's my disclaimer....
Recently, some people close to me have asked me a very nerve striking question. Several people not in any way related to each other who are going through what they consider the suckiest time of their lives...... People who mean the world to me.... the question?
IF God doesn't give us more than we can handle.... why the HELL is my life falling to shit? ( I know... I swore in the same sentence that I used God's name....sorry?)
How do I answer that? And WHO gave ME the authority to even ANSWER that question? AND HELLO!!!! all you NON believers out there..... I can hear you say ...."YEA ANYWAY!!! go ahead answer THAT Miss... I believe in GOD but life isn't always fair so explain THAT"
I have asked myself that question more times than I can recall.... I've asked it in my own life.... How can I even believe in God if my life sucks, if the depression is so great that I can't see past tomorrow, if the pain is so intense that I just cannot bear another day, if tomorrow NEVER came, would I care? And WHY...OH WHY ... me...me..me ...me .....
And when someone asks how you are doing....KNOWING the answer is
NOT GOOD.....Don't you just want to drop kick them when they tell you that "God won't give you more than you can handle!!!"? REALLY???? MY LIFE JUST FELL TO SHIT and you think THAT STUPID statement will help???? I seriously cannot WAIT to return the statement when YOUR perfect life falls to shit.....Come ON! Did your( )just die? Did you just loose your job? ....Did your house just get foreclosed on.... and on and on and on....
In the last few minutes/days/weeks/months/years.....I have found that I believed that God had punished me in ways that I didn't think was possible of Him....And let me tell you I was pissed off at Him.... I nearly moved on ...I don't know where I was going.... because I still needed something to believe in...but I sure was pissed off at the God I currently believed in....you know because I was mad at Him..... for things out of His control....(makes sense... right?)
Yea, I was moving on from a God that I believed in because He no longer served my purpose...... You know, that guy "in the sky"....the Almighty.... the Creator...blah blah blah.....
And then like a ton of proverbial bricks it hits me..... He HAS given me more than I can handle... but NOT to punish me, but to allow me the opportunity to NOT go the journey of pain and suffering alone..... but to have HIM beside me. To allow Him to walk beside me. To PROVE to me that I don't have to do it alone.
I don't expect God to do the work for me. I don't expect Him to fix my flaws, solve my problems or even find me a job. I expect Him to be my "shoulder to cry on".... "the guiding voice in my head" ( don't go there..... I don't hear voices)
At this point all of you "non-believers" are like.... "ummmmm Him?....beside you?" Loony toons.... OK, yes I am loony but stay with me.
Do I really think that My God is the same God as the one my husband, my daughters, my father, my friend, my neighbor...my GRANDMOTHER believes in? Of course not! But why take away our opportunity to have faith in Someone...or Something...if it brings us comfort?
The one question I get is why did God take my loved one..... and the NON-Comforting answer that "God wanted an Angel" is infuriating. I don't believe that God "takes" anyone because He wants them.... I believe that God's purpose isn't to interfere with "life" but to comfort us when "life happens". Death, divorce, poverty...SUCK. But I don't believe He creates it, I believe he holds us through it. And when I have to suffer from an unimaginable tragedy, I am certain that I will be pissed off at God for it happening in the first place. And I pray that one day, I will remember God's purpose.
No one has claimed to have ever "met" God, they just believe in their God because believing helps them, believing holds them, believing comforts them. Whether you "buy" into the teachings of the bible or not, do you not just want something to believe in? ( Seriously...stop singing the Poison song..... no really...stop....OK.... keep singing, I know I am)
If we all just "give it to God" and we fill in the "GOD" with whatever or whoever brings us comfort, then aren't we ALL Believers together?
And why is it so bad that we give our pain and suffering to our God? Who doesn't want to unburden themselves in a time of trouble? If we gave the burden to a friend or relative, would we really expect them to solve our problems? NO! We wouldn't freaking listen to them anyway.... but if we give our troubles to God, we are sharing the burden with someone who won't judge us, won't share our secrets, who won't get mad if we don't "take their advice" Someone who forgives us when even WE cannot forgive ourselves.
In reality, you won't find that EXACT statement "God doesn't give you more than you can handle" in the bible ... ( for those of you who read it) What you MAY find is...
Deuteronomy 31:6
6 “Be strong and brave. Don’t be afraid of them. Don’t be terrified because of them. The Lord your God will go with you. He will never leave you. He’ll never desert you.”
Hebrews 13:5
“I will never leave you.
I will never desert you.”
I will never desert you.”
13 I can do everything by the power of Christ. He gives me strength.
Perhaps what we REALLY need in order to have some faith in SOMETHING..... is the words of the bible written on inspirational posters WITHOUT reference to the Books of the Bible that they came from.... perhaps we could change the above bible verses to this:
Be strong and brave. Don't be afraid of them. Don't be terrified because of them . your FRIEND will go with you in spirit, He will never leave you, He'll never desert you.
I am you friend, I will never leave you
I will never desert you
I can do everything with my FRIEND by my side, He gives me strength.
OK, I'm done, I don't expect you to suddenly "be a believer" (not to be confused with Beliebers ...) in fact, it took me YEARS to remember why I needed to believe in something and or someone, but I do now.
So when my friends ask me WHY God is giving them more then they can handle, I tell them this,
"He isn't" He's giving you MORE than you can handle. So you can STOP trying to fix this yourself and START giving it to God (friend)
As promised, the word of the blog:
anomalistic deviation or departure from the normal or common order, form, or rule; phenomenal
Until the mood strikes me again,
Vicki
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